Being a creator and being a dad. Most People honestly will never understand the pressures and guilt involved in both sides. Needing/wanting to try make a video/content in order to keep momentum or relevancy. BUT, Kiddo says she wants to play. The potential look of disappointment if you say no, esp on a weekend. Guilt is there whatever the choice. You do everything for your family, but flip side is you become too immersed/obsessed then you end up missing your family. End of day, family should always win. But the guilt and pressures of that decision always weigh on you.

The hardest thing I have found breaking away from GTARP is that way less people f**k with you. If you aren't actively part of a grp or involved in city stories, that group/passive support/community absolutely disappears. While this can be frustrating, the biggest plus is the support you do gain moving away from a main game is usually support for you, your community and your content. Building your own ship is very difficult but in the end, it is more long lasting, esp if you are ever to move from your main game. End of the day, viewers, peers etc owe you nothing in this industry and unfortunately most are only around when it benefits them or you are seen. The amount of genuine contact you receive when people don't 'need' or 'see' you dramatically decreases and that sucks. But, again it is what it is and you continue to learn about yourself and others around you, peers and viewers. My advice, keep being genuine to you, look to continue to make real connections with peers and audience and those who are there on a sunny day only, so be it. Those who are regularly around or checking in, invest your time there. Too many invest into things and people they think will benefit them and their brand or where they can gain status even as a viewer. Keep pushing, be unique and procrastination is the great killer of all content. Just do.