DukeOfLA

Real talk. I never thought this would happen back then, but I'm probably close to reaching a breaking point. And I‘m not speaking from a standpoint of "I‘m close to give up and sell my bags because I‘m sooo scared." Truth is, I‘d never sell. I‘d rather be homeless & lose everything in my personal life than ever sell a fucking penny in a bear market. I‘m neither scared, nor worried, nor anything. I simply feel NOTHING. And this is the issue. If you have been here as long as me, you‘d understand that certain things take a while. But also you get older, you see life passing by and misery is an omnipresent shadow behind your back. The worst feeling is realizing that most often nothing ever happens. It‘s always you hoping, wishing, praying for specific things to show up in your life. But they never do. They NEVER do. So unless you actively start to get things done, life will simply continue to pass. And one day you‘re old, you‘re sick and no amount of money can fix that. No amount of money can revert to the past. No amount of money can bring time back, time that you lost while waiting for whatever. It‘s the same with waiting for a bull run. Sure, there‘s little alternative out there. If you‘re not in crypto, what else will you do? You‘re doomed if you‘re not fully stacked. It‘s your only way out. Even if it means having to go through hell for this. No, you see, what I partially regret is having made crypto a full-time hobby. A passion. Day & night you‘re reading, posting about it, about nothing else. And what for? So it drains your energy nonstop. It drains your life, drains your soul, drains your creativity for something else in life. What people should do instead, is make an investment and then fuck off for years. Just as they do with stocks. No mofo sits in a telegram-group and talks about their APPLE stock day & night, and gets emotional about this & that. It‘s solely a crypto phenomenon. And this is also why crypto is both the best and most dangerous thing in the world. It‘s addicting and designed in a way to get you engaged. Oh, look at this fancy dog coin with the funny memes! Many crypto coins do not have cults in them without a reason. Back then men went on into fraternities, they had men's clubs, they had all kinds of sacred spaces where they met with other guys and shared their passions and struggles. Like brotherhoods. And now it‘s crypto coins. It‘s absolutely degenerate. But totally fitting for the absurd times we live in today. I sincerely regret at times to ever have made an online account. Because it drains you. You constantly have to be productive. Don‘t get me wrong, I appreciate the many people I met. I appreciate the many experiences I made & lots of stuff I learned along the way. But on a deeper surface, there‘s moments I simply hate everything that has to do with crypto. Sometimes you want to share your many other passions but most do not care. Most expect you to deliver. To keep the mob entertained, and to help those struggling to live through these times. Everyone expects something. It‘s all so tiresome. I perfectly understand the pivot of the situation, it‘s designed this way. It all became so redundant and boring and tiring, to make everyone INCLUDING ME feel awful. I feel awful because I‘m burned out. 5 years of non-stop content. 5 years of precious time that may or may not be wasted and thrown out the window. Most cannot relate, because most haven’t been here for this long and most people are consumers. Most people are energy vampires. They consume, but they never provide. I simply feel empty, as empty as never ever before. Sucked out of my life force. And I kinda doubt that even if crypto exploded tomorrow it would change a single bit for my soul‘s health. It might calm the wounds, but all those scars? Will never go away. Just like Frodo, unable to return to his former life, forced to leave middle earth. Just like him.