Cryptogenics

I know it’s just glorified white collar boxing, but this clip made me feel really proud . A week ago I headlined @MisfitsBoxing against Joey Essex this was the last round. Wanted to share these moments of men together, believing they could do something, led by Stuart Lammers. A man who helped save my marriage, my life, taught me to fight, rebuilt me when I was on my knees broken. Coming back to the corner after the 3rd I told Stu “I’m done, I’m finished, I’m f%^&ed.” I was broken, felt like I had absolutely nothing left. He tells me the mind gives up long before the body. It’s lying to you. He still expects us to work when we’re broken. That’s how you find out what you’ve actually got. Men need other men around them. A proper tribe. Blokes who sharpen you, push you, give you confidence and make you want to be better. There’s real power in that. We’ve all got heart in us, most of us just need to find it. You need to find it. I’ve been through the addiction, the mental health battles, the times when everything felt too much and I’ve sobbed feeling weak and pathetic. But the people who go through life’s proper struggles, the dark days, the mental health stuff, and still keep fighting to get better they’re some of the strongest people out there. When I watch this back I’m inspired by the man I see. I’m proud of him. If you’re struggling, that’s what you need right now – something to be proud of. You’ve got fight in you. Don’t give up. Give it everything you’ve got. Show heart.

It is what it is, I still feel proud, I wanted to try to showcase some good boxing & promote our film about addiction & men deciding to leave the world behind , & give a good account of myself.. & it all just happened to fall on world mental health day, which is sureal. Didn’t get the win, but I hope I showed heart.