What is this even called?🍓

Can’t even begin to express but this sort of puts it into words about how I feel about my life right now and specifically the scenario and place my life is at in this moment. I think one of the biggest take aways is that after leaving Florida and moving to San Francisco initially that I’ve always been able to find a job and career which aligned with my passion and skill set whereas in the past and now again in Florida I’m unable to find a single course of employment which aligns with my experience. I often wonder if I’ll find that here at all and must suffer this year of my life, due mostly with my lapse in judgement late last year and be abjectly miserable in a position that I don’t want and living in a place where I lack any of the freedom to be and experience life as I want to. This isn’t a slight to my family who has helped me out in this time of my life but I feel helpless to progress and find any sort of happiness at all in my life as it currently stands. I just wanted to vent and now with the extended @x platform figured I would since there is where a lot of my life has played out, quite notoriously unfortunately at times.

Started writing for @BookOfStarr as it regard to Vincent Hall who was a part of my life and the last major character in the story of my life in Columbus. Went through and found some text… here are just a few of the ones between us: The day after our first date we continued talking all day. “Nick ⭐️r: Again limited by time and all but i didn’t want to stop talking with you Vincent Hall: Same it’s easy to talk to you Nick ⭐️r: It was easy to look at you and I’m glad we bounced off each others energy in person” Nick ⭐️r: now wish I had reached down a tad further to feel that (Ngl maybe taste it) Vincent Hall: Pshhh same tho 💀 Nick ⭐️r: I’m so glad we didn’t go further. I know we both might’ve wanted to but that leads to anticipation for the next time – at St Petersburg, FL