We went to church this morning and I have a lot of thoughts. Thank you for all of the DM's and replies about it. The pastor, thankfully, did not wash my mouth out with soap. I felt welcome and they did this thing like 10 minutes in where you are supposed to meet the people around you. The woman next to me gave me a hug and I felt really bad because I started crying and she thought she did something wrong. Maybe that's the Holy Spirit or me just being socially awkward. The pastor talked a lot about Jesus and grace. He told the story of a woman named Rahab who was a prostitute and ultimately became an ancestor of Jesus. I don't know where in the Bible that is, but I will look it up and put it in the comments. I'm not the same as Rahab, but it made me feel like there is hope for me in this, maybe. I have many more thoughts and a lot more questions that I will probably share in the coming days if that is ok. But I'm gonna say this for now... I am putting @MrsErikaKirk's tweet here. I think there's more to what Erika is saying than just what she wrote. She said "Go to church." She didn't say go to a church in this denomination or that has this specific belief. She just said to go. I think she just wants people to feel Jesus and is less worried about where. I think right now, maybe I just need to go and see and feel and not worry about the small things like how people interpret things in the Bible. This was really long. Know that I appreciate all of the advice, care and thoughts I have found from strangers (and friends) on the internet.