GGs. i need to come to terms that what was once a silly crush, relegated to a friendship, is now a wilted dead friendship.

i want it to go, the worst thing is attachment. the worst thing is hope that they’ll reach out first and initiate. hope is cruel.

two weirds and i just write it off. which then i’ll grieve a friendship that will slowly die if not dead already

RAAAAAA this!! it’s this that makes me so upset and hurt. and honestly i want to tell them they’re a fucking bitch. but if i say that, its sad from me.

in hindsight, the person that i tweet about constantly on here feels exaggerated. it’s just a crush that i overly romanticized. but i need an outlet or else i’ll explode

i envy and also get pressed by people who can just stop giving a f*ck. i want that ability.

p0rn. or something to refer back to. mostly p0rn tho

block and move on but ive never been wanted so idk

sometimes its better. bc finding a connection with a stranger even if brief, makes it feel a tiny bit less lonely

tweeting for likes feels performative

oomf gave me a memento when we met irl. and if the day comes when i finally let go of my feelings of her, i’ll mail it back to her and let her know good bye.

i remember when u said u liked collecting CDs. and i really made the effort of keeping an eye out for cool cds and players— either to get for u or share with u. now after everything. it just aches my heart seeing a CD bc it reminds me of u and what is now gone between us

would give you a hug if i could. nobody wants to be lonely, it’s just a cruel world filled with shallow people.

tweeting to strangers and to a void>>>>>>>>>

cannot help it. genuine friendships from irls is hard to find.

nod

go to the gym then you can be a horny buff instead

idk the exact context but i would its bc they don’t want the rejection to materialize. so running away from it is the only way they can cope

sending music to oomf was my love language but now the thought of sending music to her makes me want to retch and sob.

if only this worked. cause that’s how i flirt in my head 😭

did that to oomf. now i’ve reached a point of no return bc i made it so weird