unpinning at 120lbs sw 129lbs (:̲̅:̲̅:̲̅[̲̅:𖢒:]̲̅:̲̅:̲̅:̲̅)

i feel like i am getting worse as the days go on

i cleaned my glasses and now i can actually SEE

i need my hair to get longer NOW!!!! i miss my long hair so so bad

i slept in until 1 , and now i’m facing the emotional consequences. i feel like total buns ,, ive just been feeling like total buns here recently :/

part of me wants to try to recover, since i feel like it may be affecting my heart rate my heart rate casually sits from 80-105 most of the time. it’s so draining, and it makes me feel so sick. i just need to let myself heal for once.

the weed is wearing off and i am beginning to feel sad again. what the fuck

4 months clean from sh! i think i should celebrate by relapsing! 🎉🎉 this is a joke. kind of. i am laughing through my pain.

scratched off my skin on my shoulder the other night, not counting it as a relapse because lol whatever

my mom: we cant be wasting money! also my mom: *buys so much bullshit online that we dont need*

i want a warm meal HORRIBLY!!! i just want warm food…fuck

ok so im actually starting the courses tomorrow or wednesday, i’m still waiting on two textbooks to arrive

starting online courses today :) may not be as active as i usually am during the week, but i will definitely be checking in every now and then! i love you all, and i hope you’re all doing well <3

i hope the scale is nice to me when i weigh in tomorrow. and i also hope i poop before then.

i dont know what triggered these awful memories of things that i wish i could forget :( maybe it’s the season

do any of my moots fw pinegrove

im the king of high blood pressure 👑 it actually sucks and scares me really bad when im blood pressure is 135+ / 100+ and my heart rate is 100+ !!! being stoned feels like having high blood pressure, so i just freak out when i hit carts. the joint was less scary

had deer meat burritos with my bf, that man can wrap a damn burrito!!! they were so good…and we made chicken alfredo today!